do you ever really know someone?

i'm not sure you do....

it's fair to say that in the friendship stakes, I have not had the best few months....don't get me wrong my really important and closest friendships are solid and they will continue to be, hopefully indefinitely, but there were a few other friendships that were forming which are now, well, one of them is no more and the other is, hanging on by a thread..... 

so in the first instance, because we became friends through a mutual third party, who I didn't think was a close friend of hers (and was not a friend of mine, but rather the partner, well ex-partner now, of a school friend of mine) when I was accused by the third party of having an affair with my school friend, the new friend decided to choose the other friend over me....sigh and sure I can understand that to an extent, but I'm hurt and after a year of working to get to know this person and for the most part, really enjoyed our blossoming friendship, she chose comfort over a friendship with me... 

the other one, is the school friend, who since he left his partner, we've been spending more time together (platonic for me) and then I shared something really personal with him and his behaviour has changed since then...sooo disappointed.. and now he decided to mention he was attracted to me, i made it clear i wasn't interested in anything other than friendship and since then he's been a dick frankly....and overstepped any number of boundaries.... sigh! 

disappointed.....