up and down, but mainly down....

the last few weeks have been tough

there's been a few things that have rocked me

first, the FB marketplace woman who accused me of being racist because she thought I was rude...funny, coz she hung up on me and when she finally got to my house to pick up the items she was buying, when I said 'hello' she merely grunted at me 'can i see the things?'....

but it got to me, and i'm not sure why

then the very rude waitress at a cafe a mate and I went to for lunch...we ended up leaving because she was so rude to us, so I went back to talk to the manager - which turned out to be her - and she was threatening and yelled at me

so i guess that was a bad week and one where i thought that i just couldn't get it right; and sure, you can't please all of the people all of the time, but man! i wonder what the universe was trying to show me?

added to that i'm still plagued by thoughts of death - not my own necessarily, but losing my Mum...and she's not unwell or in bad health, but i guess as i get older, so do they, and the reality that they aren't always going to be here is just a bit too much to get my head around some days...:-(

and then, amongst all of this, i've been feeling a bit flat; maybe an existential crisis, maybe i'm lonely, maybe it's because i'm single?

who knows....

anyway, it's been more down than up and i'm hoping that turns around soon...

ciao