double edged sword....

so i have this client; actually, i see them as a client, but i'm a sub-contractor - maybe that is part of what bugs me! i treat them like a client, and they treat me, life a sub-contractor....

expectation gap is the term that keeps coming to mind, but it seems that unless i find a way to shield myself from how i feel in some of their communications (to the point, often with no reason or rationale behind their decisions, some of which impact me), then i may need to consider whether i want to remain in this 'relationship'...

reason the title of this post is double edged sword is because the work i get to do is fabulous and i not only really enjoy it, i think i'm doing incredible work - the work i'm here to do - you know, the work that i think i'm on the planet to do - helping others.

i had a great session with Sal about this very issue the other day and whilst she agrees they are clunky and unconsidered in their communications (ironically, one of the very things i teach to their client when i'm working for them!), this really has nothing to do with me...

and sure, don't we all wish that everyone we worked with thought about the impact on us before they shared stuff (or in this case, blurted out) with us, the reality is, that's a massive big disappointment waiting to happen...

add to that the fact that after the said blurt of one of them, i raised it in an email to that person and the boss, not even a response - and it's been a week and a half...

so what it leaves me feeling is unvalued - and honestly, i wonder if they care? as long as i'm out there doing great work to earn them a good reputation i think they don't care...

but they should, right? 

anyway, i'm impacted by their behaviour and i'm trying to not let it bother me....