one mojo lost...

i have zero mojo today...and sure, i'm old and wise enough to know that this sometimes happens...

the lack of sun won't be helping - it's overcast in the capital today and cold!

running your own business can be tough sometimes; mostly it's rewarding and flexible and bloody fabulous, but on occasion, usually when you're not so busy you don't have time to think, it's not quite so busy, and whilst i would love to be able to celebrate those times, my first thought is often 'hmmm i wonder where the next client will come from' and that sometimes, not always, leads to 'what if another client doesn't come'...

funny how our minds work...when i decided to go out on my own (again) late last year, i had no clue really where the clients would come from, or if they would...

but since 1 Feb when i officially stopped being on holiday, i've been reasonably busy...and each month since then my billings have grown...

yep, great evidence for days like today where i'm just feeling meh! of course, i could also be getting a sinus infection (this time of the year in the capital, unfortunately, heralds the start of a long sinus season!)....

so instead of doing the small amount of work i have today, i've been 'cleaning up'; not actually a bad way to get things in order...

they say a tidy desk means a tidy mind - really? i think that's utter bullshit really, but when i'm procrastinating, i sort!

i've made various health appointments which were long overdue, i've paid bills, i've actually filed client stuff and sorted out that pile of paper/letters which has bee building up in the kitchen for weeks...

i'm about to make my 3rd cuppa for the day and then maybe i'll get into work...

but i feel completely uninspired! it could also be because one the assignments with one of my first and favourite clients is about to come to an end (a natural end)...and i'll miss working with her...

funny how we, or in this case me, grieve the loss of clients...in the case of an HR consulting client, i think it's good really when they no longer need you because either you've a) helped them resolve the problem and/or b) shared with them a bunch of stuff which makes it easier for them to navigate their problems on their own...for me personally, these are both good things!

so meh meh meh

i have Monday-itis! maybe another cuppa will sort it out...

on a positive note my Blue baggers had a great win on Saturday - Dad and I enjoyed that very much :-)

happy Monday peeps - hope you're not having mojo loss!