swings and roundabouts...

so funny how the start of a day or week, or even hour, can not go well and then suddenly, things look completely ok again...

one of the wonders of human nature i guess...

reminds me of that famous platitude, which isn't really a platitude, that 'this too shall pass'...

it really does! whether things are good or bad, they are, essentially temporary...this was such a good lesson from my early days of meditation and buddhist teachings...

no wonder why so many people are trying to be 'in the moment' rather than looking backwards (i do this too much sometimes) or looking forward (i do this too, how else could i be described as a dreamer?)...

so, a few days on from the early week loss of mojo, i'm feeling good again...

i haven't quite secured a new client yet, but i've been asked to resubmit a proposal for a somewhat altered scope and it would still be a great piece of work to secure between now and the financial year end; and it would be my first NFP gig, and a lovely client who i think could use me more if i do a good job on this one (which of course, I will...)

so tonight i'm trying out a new yoga studio - one in the same suburb as my lovely little home - how convenient - bound to make it much easier for me to go more often...

they have a great schedule, a wide range of classes and for 10 classes it's only $160 if you pay upfront - pretty darn good!

so, off to my 2nd class of the week...

adios peeps x

post script to pissed off...

so it seems my polite and professional email response got the desired outcome for me - no reduction in invoice but still, i'm a bit miffed...

should i be?

maybe it was so that i could observe my reaction - and let me tell you, it was a reaction...

what i am pleased about is that previously i suspect my response would have been more reaction and less response...

guess i have at least come that far...

so, now i'm wondering how one curtails the reaction...?

is that possible?

i guess over time it is, this morning it wasn't!

ha!

pissed off

this morning, and maybe i shouldn't be!

so i've issued my 2nd invoice to a company i'm doing work for and the guy i used to work with has sent me a bunch of questions asking if i'll reconsider one of my pieces of work...in the scheme of the entire invoice it is for 2.5 hours of my time, which is probably less than it took in reality! and in an invoice of $8,800 (for his company) it's $454! seriously.....

he has told me that other people often think he is nit picky and manages them tightly with costs, and i previously hadn't experienced that; until this morning!

leaves me feeling less than inspired to do what i need to do for them today i can tell you...

then there's the other side of me who appreciates that he's probably getting pressure, it's his job etc. etc. and/or maybe he just wants to let me know who is boss...

and all this after i did some work for his Mum, and when i sent him the amount, he said 'I'm sure it's more than that'...

i do not overcharge people and maybe that's what i'm angry about....

anyway, i politely responded to his email and told him that i was more than happy to talk about it - which of course i am - in fact, I would have preferred him to call me with his questions rather than send a very professional/cold email....

pretty fucking pissed off.....

one mojo lost...

i have zero mojo today...and sure, i'm old and wise enough to know that this sometimes happens...

the lack of sun won't be helping - it's overcast in the capital today and cold!

running your own business can be tough sometimes; mostly it's rewarding and flexible and bloody fabulous, but on occasion, usually when you're not so busy you don't have time to think, it's not quite so busy, and whilst i would love to be able to celebrate those times, my first thought is often 'hmmm i wonder where the next client will come from' and that sometimes, not always, leads to 'what if another client doesn't come'...

funny how our minds work...when i decided to go out on my own (again) late last year, i had no clue really where the clients would come from, or if they would...

but since 1 Feb when i officially stopped being on holiday, i've been reasonably busy...and each month since then my billings have grown...

yep, great evidence for days like today where i'm just feeling meh! of course, i could also be getting a sinus infection (this time of the year in the capital, unfortunately, heralds the start of a long sinus season!)....

so instead of doing the small amount of work i have today, i've been 'cleaning up'; not actually a bad way to get things in order...

they say a tidy desk means a tidy mind - really? i think that's utter bullshit really, but when i'm procrastinating, i sort!

i've made various health appointments which were long overdue, i've paid bills, i've actually filed client stuff and sorted out that pile of paper/letters which has bee building up in the kitchen for weeks...

i'm about to make my 3rd cuppa for the day and then maybe i'll get into work...

but i feel completely uninspired! it could also be because one the assignments with one of my first and favourite clients is about to come to an end (a natural end)...and i'll miss working with her...

funny how we, or in this case me, grieve the loss of clients...in the case of an HR consulting client, i think it's good really when they no longer need you because either you've a) helped them resolve the problem and/or b) shared with them a bunch of stuff which makes it easier for them to navigate their problems on their own...for me personally, these are both good things!

so meh meh meh

i have Monday-itis! maybe another cuppa will sort it out...

on a positive note my Blue baggers had a great win on Saturday - Dad and I enjoyed that very much :-)

happy Monday peeps - hope you're not having mojo loss!