new years' resolutions...

so, it's been an interesting few months! the holiday was in some way marred by the familiar feelings of fear I am confronted with when things with a staff member aren't going well...

thankfully, I've started to have Skype sessions with Sal since I got back and that has helped...

but also, our conversations have allowed me to realise that I am NEVER on my own side, that I ALWAYS assume I'm in the wrong (even when I know I'm not) and that I'm in trouble...

this goes back a long long way into the depths of my childhood and probably (no, definitely) requires more work...

so of course in the midst of my 'the worst thing will happen' thinking (which of course, is highly unlikely!), I thought about some ways in which I could improve my attitude/beliefs if I'm to continue in this role/company for the remainder of my contact (which equates to 23 months)...

so the things I'm going to try and do - for me - starting on 1 July are:

 - try and live on a little over 50% of my current salary;
 - remember that I can renegotiate the mortgage term in need (I seem to conveniently forget this);
 - rebuild my share portfolio to it's former value, and increase it further over the next 2 years;
 - blog more;
 - have regular sessions with Sal;
 - try and find time in my day to meditate;
 - source some writing/book club things in Canberra;
 - make space to revisit Lexie;
 - commit to finding time to exercise (knowing how much better I feel when I do);
 - identify some things to sell on eBay (namely, things I no longer need/use which are just taking up room either in the unit or garage);
 - develop useful and meaningful professional networks in the capital so that 'choice' is abundant; and
 - continue with the changes in my little home to make it home.

so sure, it's the wrong time of year to think about new years' resolutions, but 1 July is the new financial year, so I figure, it's as good a time as any...

one of the things I am going to need to do is get a board/something so I can jot these things down so I see them regularly! and perhaps I need to do at least a monthly update...

I'm keen not to count the days of this contract down (as there are too many to count - in fact, I couldn't resist, there are 458 working days not including any leave I may take from Jan 2017 - April 2018 when my current contract is up...)