teenage dream....

yep, that's what i think i'm having right now, but in an entirely different way to the teenage dreams i was having about Chris...

and you know what? it's nice! it's nice to have something to look forward to (of course, I have heaps of good stuff to look forward to, but this is a little different)....it's nice to imagine that it won't be too long before we kiss and i'm excited about that

i do love a good pash! i do...it's true...and it's been AGES since i pashed anyone with any passion! funny, i remember the last time i pashed Ben it felt like 'going through the motions' - man, I really should have seen the writing on the wall with him sooner? what was i thinking?

funny, in the midst of my date with FC yesterday, Ben texted me....guess what i did? nothing! well not true: i deleted it without responding...

funny, years ago i would have thought that was rude, but really, what point is there staying in touch with him? none, none at all...

soooo i've made it through my day, hangover and all, and managed to get a fair bit of work done, managed to take 2 games of tennis off my coach (yay!), he was gobsmacked (he he ) and now i'm going to bed to hopefully dream of someone....

not the sort of dreams i had lastnight where i was at his place, oh right, that wasn't a dream! and a whole bunch of other work people turned up...woke up in a cold sweat! no, don't want that sort of dream tonight....!

no, i want the other sort of dream - you know the 'sweet' variety! 

nite peeps, i sense good things ahead and you know, i had a realisation today - when by 2pm he hadn't even responded to my text of lastnight...i really thought it was rude, but then i realise that me thinking he disappears in the middle of a conversation is also a gripe I had with Chris and Ben...

FUCK: maybe it's me! maybe this is normal (of course, i still think it's rude...)....so i'm trying a different approach from now on...

of course i often feel resolved just before i go to bed so lets see how i feel in the cold hard light of day...gonna try, really hard!

having said that when i emailed FC to tell him i was not happy with him he said 'well save your complaint for next time!'....so, another date is to follow

yay!