so
of course by last night i was beside myself, beside myself that despite
everything we talked about Friday, that i didn't hear from him at all...
and
sure, a lot of this is my insecurity (of course it is, i know this) but
still...
i
had hoped he would make contact
so
when he didn't and i did, i'd hope he'd at least respond...
but
no. nothing
so
is he playing games with me? is he just being rude? does he think because i
didn't stay i'm not interested in him and it's over (before it's even really
gotten off the ground)?
i
dunno, but i know that to be in my head right now is hell, sheer hell and i
don't like it
it's
gonna be a long day and one where if i do manage to get out of the mire of 'i'm
not good enough' thoughts, that will be a welcome relief
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