confused as well...

so, maybe the bff's are right! so tonight, just before 6pm he sends me a text (admittedly this is not one of those texts that is going to light my world on fire or send any message about how he might feel about me)

the text is not worthy of documenting - it was, as is his wont, rude, direct, and frankly dismissive - it could have said fuck off and that may have been clearer


but i'm going to document it, so that in times ahead i don't forget how rude it was: 'i like to be off the radar whilst on holiday - talk to you tomorrow'...really? wouldn't 'fuck off' have been more like it...how dismissive, sounds like he's talking to a work colleague he has no interest in talking to....:(

i respond telling him i'm confused and he says 'confused as well'...

so maybe the consensus is right? maybe it's not over yet? maybe there is to be another chapter after all...

now, i need to work out what i want!

to my bff's who listened today (you know who you are) - thank you xx mwah