back peddling....

fuck! so in response to the anonymous commentor i decide to ask a question: which is basically 'how did you find my blog?'...he tells me that if you type in my name or website (i wonder if he means the blog URL?) then it comes up?

but i have tried that - typing my name into google, or even google blogs does NOT show this blog! so perhaps i'm missing something...

but man am I getting paranoid....if i had to give up the blog as well as twitter, and have ridiculous privacy settings on facebook, i would surely hate it...

i love my blog! not just because occasionally people read it, but mainly coz it's my record, my journal, my account of stuff...and by stuff, i don't just mean the physical, but the emotional, the spiritual, the universal....

and i am NOT ready to give it up! not for anyone...not my boss, not FC, not anyone...

nope! there you have it...it's become a part of who i am, of who i know myself to be, of how i see myself...it helps me work through stuff...

nope, it can't go....

so in order to prevent it being 'stumbled upon' by anyone i don't want to see it, i've made some changes to the posts (basically removed all photos which were posted, albeit years ago), i've changed the intro statement, i've removed all references to what i actually do etc etc...blogger assures me that my email address and full name are not visible

let's hope they are right!

i can't actually describe the emotional rollercoaster this has sent me on....

so, for the first time in ages, instead of going to bed consumed with thoughts about FC i will be thinking only of my precious blog...

and this sort of thing is one of the very reasons that re-entering the 'real world', especially in a senior job, was just going to come at a cost....

:-(