or was it rude? maybe it was just awkward? busy? focused (I’m guessing he’s task oriented so as a people oriented person I’m finding his task side rude?)
dunno really, but I am wondering now whether meeting him for a drink Sunday is a good idea
so of course all that aside, after many conversations today, and a lengthy conversation with a colleague (which kept me at work until 7.22pm) followed by a ‘can we see you for a minute’ on the way out (which was another 20 minutes), when I finally left, I actually felt like a drink
so I succumbed! not to a drink with him, but to texting him telling him I wished it was Sunday already as I really needed a drink…
hmmm, pretty sure I shouldn’t have done that! Well, maybe not ‘shouldn’t’ so much as, why did i?
what did I hope to gain?
truthfully, I know EXACTLY what I hoped to gain…that he would respond with ‘well come join us’….
but no, instead there’s been no response! i’m not even surprised…he has been known to do this, we even talked about it the other night and he told me that he couldn’t tell me why he does it (mental note to self: if the Sunday drinking session actually takes place be sure to bring this up)
so normally in this situation I would be really annoyed with myself and feeling as though I’d given some power away, and sure, maybe I have, but I’m determined to do at least 2 things differently here…
firstly, try not to play games (I hate games other than the sporting or board game variety) and secondly, be aware of what I’m doing and my thoughts/feelings…
so, tick! i felt like saying I wished it was Sunday and I did, and I’m aware that I felt this need to connect with him…which I cannot explain!
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