since my
thoughts about this person have been almost all consuming since thursday...when
he texted me
saying he'd buy me a drink
now i had
thought at that point, he might fancy me...and whilst that is a good thing,
it's also brought up many similarities with my relationship with ben...and
i think, that maybe just maybe, the pattern is re-appearing so i can break
it...yep, pretty sure about that!
so of course
him asking me to coach him, and the subsequent rude email last night, well not
rude, so much as, just without niceties (or maybe it was rude - at best it was
nonconstructive!) has made me wonder if he was only being nice to me with an
ulterior motive...
so i asked Sar what her thoughts were, and she thinks
i am definitely getting mixed messages...and sure, that doesn't actually help
me sift through them, but at least, it means someone else would read his
communications with me the way i have...
so i'm left wondering, wondering if he likes
me or if he just wants coaching, and i'm left
thinking that i'm not
sure coaching him is a good idea....
shit! i have
also noticed in more recent times, since we've been talking more, and since he
started following me on twitter, before i disappeared, he has been awkward with
me...or is it me? am i awkward with him too? i'm sure
there is something there - don't know what it is, but it feels as though there
is a mutual attraction, if you could call it that?
ah fuck...who
knows, i'm a
bit over the time it's taking up today so am going to throw myself into
Lexie...
perhaps more
light will be shed in coming days!
nite peeps
xx
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