Saturday, March 10, 2012

confused...

today, or am i? no, acutely aware of the likely road ahead is more like it...

so i didn't go for a drink with him yesterday, honestly i'd never said i would, i said i'd think about it...and i did

think about, i thought about it and i just didn't feel like it.  by 3ish i had hit a brick wall and just wanted to curl up on my couch...

instead i went to paddo and to my favourite costume jewellery maker - hung out and played with them for a while, then got home, by which time he'd texted me to tell me he'd thought of an alternative way to solve the issue i'm having at work...

then we texted for a while, then he called and we spent nearly an hour and a half on the phone...

turns out he wants my help! wants me to coach him...

didn't see that coming...seriously! 

and i have mixed feelings about it...a big part of me (the coach who doesn't get much of a work out these days) is super chuffed to be asked

the part of me that might have been secretly hoping he fancied me, is disappointed....of course i think he's all wrong for me, we work together, he's rude etc etc...but still

of course, he might, who knows! wanting to be coached by someone and fancying them aren't mutually exclusive...are they?

i definitely think this is a test! bit like the test Lexie's about to have, it's a test and i know it is...

all i can hear is 'be careful, be careful and don't forget everything you've worked hard to learn'...hmmmm

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