weird...

how someone you haven't thought about for ages, suddenly pops up...in your mind that is...and in my case in my dreams, well one of them anyway...

disturbing...

disturbing and yet interesting, as historically, i have observed that i rarely (if ever) dream about someone whilst they are 'in' my life...men anyway, it only seems that they start to appear in my dreams when i am starting to feel 'over' (if i can use that word, which i don't really like) them...

sooo interesting it is, although the dream itself was a little disturbing, and not in a bad way, just that he was in my dreams and even though i have had so much going on (both at work and in my personal life) of late, it's amazing that my mind even has time to remember him, let alone have him turn up in my dream...

can't even remember exactly what the context was or what happened in the dream, but i do remember waking up disturbed that he was in it....and of course, the inevitable reminder of all that was and what he did etc etc

and the realisation that it's NEVER gonna go away...what he did is always going to be there and in many ways has (despite my best efforts) gotten in the way some how...

yep, he has gotten in the way of what i wanted for myself in one area of my life...

thankfully the other areas all seem relatively good and 'on track' so to speak..

so, it was weird to have him turn up in my dream, and somewhat unwelcome, so universe (or should i say mind!), please avoid having him appear in future dreams...

nite x