in the midst of talking about my willpower, and my superior negotiating skills and the inevitable flow on conversations that lead to...I had a big realization....
see the 13 year old girl inside believed that staying in touch with Chris might in some way negate what happened and that by being in touch I might eventually feel that him and I were on a level playing field...that I might regain some of my power
but no, seems I finally realized that NO matter what, that can never be..that particular ending just isn't possible...
and you know what? I am sad but I am also relieved...
wow, maybe I needed to have this realization, this epiphany so that ultimately ceasing all contact with him will seem like the right thing to do??
it's been an amazing few days...wonder what's next??
until next time...
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