has taken on a much quieter, less dramatic pace since i decided to move on from you know who...Chris that would be for those readers who may have been following the story...
yep it's now been weeks since we had any contact, and honestly, it's good...sure it was hard initially and i thought i missed him...not sure what it was exactly that i missed...perhaps the idea of who i wanted him to be, perhaps the attention (i'd be lying if i said i didn't like the attention...)...not sure really, but seems that even though i may have missed him i am now just starting to get my groove back
i feel good! i feel happy...i am enjoying my life, i am NOT enjoying the weather (but that has nothing to do with him!)...
it's still hard sometimes when i find myself remembering what he did when i walk past a certain building, it's getting easier to go past the Mater and not think of him...
sooo i'm not sure i'll ever forget him, not even sure i'd want to...but i am feeling good! happy! content and even starting to feel much more positive about the future...
was a tough six months, but it had to happen...he had to turn up, i had to deal with some stuff, i had to relive and play out my childhood fantasy and ultimately i had to see him for what he is and what he can't be...
all good :-)
so universe, even though at times i was struggling and wondering why on earth you let him find me, i am grateful for where i am right now, right this minute, on a tuesday night with the rain pouring (yep, it's just started up again), about to crawl into my lovely bed, in my beautiful little home, in a city i love, in a country i call home...
yep, it's all good from where i sit...thank you!
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