i'm takin' it...

yep! i decided today...that i'm taking the job!

it just felt right...i was excited and engaged and feeling valued and thought, why the hell not?

sure, i'm giving up a coupla things, but mostly it's going to provide me with a whole lot of positives that right now, do not look achievable in my own little biz...and yep, i'm sad to be putting the biz on hold, but that's it really - it's not over...and i have every intention of returning to it at some point...

but the now almost constant worry about money, the boredom of having nowhere near enough to do, the reluctance to get out there and sell sell sell...well, i've had enough of that really...and even though i think i'm afraid of hard work - actually that's crap! i'm afraid of hard work that comes to nothing...of spending hours doing work that isn't valued or of value...and sure i hate getting up in the morning but getting up with a clear purpose every single day, and a place to go, with people who need me...yep, that's gonna be good! and no, i'm not wearing the rose coloured glasses (i don't wear glasses anymore, remember?) and yes i'm certain there are gonna be challenging days, challenging people and times when i think 'WTF was i thinking'?...

but in 3 years time when the mortgage is almost gone, the share portfolio doubled, the super pot significantly bigger than it is now, when i've been back to NYC at least two more times, when i've renovated the ensuite and painted the study, when i am debt free...and when i've done a fabulous job for the new employer...then i'll be able to think about the biz and what next...

i was so excited when i left my meeting this morning - the same meeting that when i was invited the other day (as a development opportunity) i got my nose out of joint a bit...turns out this 'boss to be' really does value me and want my input - sometimes she's just a bit straightforward in how she says things - and i need to remember NOT to take things so bloody personally!

so it's not official yet, could take another 5 weeks or so before the formal offer comes in, but the good thing is i am no longer wondering if i am going to do it...I am!

oh, and did i mention i get a PA? how exciting...not that i'll know what to get her to do (and i don't say her because i assume it will be a girl/woman, i know who it is!) but no doubt that won't take long! it's a big job, there's gonna be lots to do but i do love a challenge...

yay me!