ah offspring...

and you know i am NOT talking about children, well not my own anyway, coz i don't have any...

nope, talking about one of my FAVE aussie dramas which started again tonight and it was laugh out loud hilarious!

lines such as 'it's not some american self actualisation ritual' and 'fucked relationship archive'...seriously love this show! love her...she is such a nut job...and i can soooo relate to that!

sooo, my 'fucked relationship archive' may well be coming to an end...the 'blip' with Chris last week (who from now on i may call dickhead or bastard or even self centred one...yep i like that best) now seems like a distant memory and as i was making a cup of tea tonight it occurred to me that in fact my life is way more peaceful without him in it...in a nice way

i love not expecting to see his name (actually, his number, his name hasn't been in my phone for some time now...) come up on my phone, i love that i know that pretty much unless i make contact (which i won't be again...i won't, really) he won't make contact and there is comfort in knowing that...

there is even more comfort in knowing that i am probably no longer of any interest to him and whilst that might have been hurtful previously, now it is something like relief i guess...see, even if he was interested in me he's not available, he's self centered, he's arrogant and it's ALL about him...

i soooooo don't want to be with someone like that...nope, in fact just writing this has prompted me to go find that 'list', you know, the one i wrote a week after my breakup with Ben (which now seems like it was forever ago), the one where i was VERY clear about what it is i want in a man...

yep, gotta find that list!