take your pick...

S & M or enough is enough?

both seem like appropriate titles for this blog post...and both were inspired by none other than Carrie Bradshaw...a bit like Seinfeld, Sex and the City NEVER gets old (at least not to me)

and it's probably a coupla things really! takes me back to a time when i was 29 (wow, is it really that long ago that it all started? when 9.30pm monday night became a sacred time, not even to be interrupted by the current beau? even for great sex...) and life looked so different to today (in many ways) and so similar in others...

i love Carrie - i think her character is very real, if not a bit neurotic and off the wall...maybe that's the appeal! it's funny too that one of the things i find interesting about the show is that none of their parents are really featured, and whilst i guess the show doesn't really need 'parentals' to make it what it is, it's strange none the less...

but i digress! i love Carrie - i love that she's a writer, i love her shoe collection, i love the way she writes, as if she's talking to someone else (kinda like how i try and write my blog), i love that she's a sucker for Mr Big (god knows, we've all had men in our lives we were suckers for, even when we knew we shouldn't be) and i especially loved tonight's episode where they had one of their break ups...

and she realises that her relationship with him is akin to an S & M relationship...haven't we all had that experience? well, no doubt some of you won't....but i have...an i'm using S & M as a metaphor people (before you decide to navigate away from this page in disgust!)

that awful feeling that you know this person is no good for you, but you seemingly can't drag yourself away and in fact, this feeling makes you want them more...it's dangerous! it is...like a drug, an addiction...and just when you think you've had enough and can walk away, something unhinges you and you find yourself right back where you started, or worse...somewhere you never thought you'd go...

yep, tonight's episode was an interesting one, and it came at an interesting time...see i had my weekly therapy session today and despite last weeks 'plan' to do some work on the 'you know who' fantasy, we didn't...i was feeling too good, too happy and i guess i didn't really want to go there today...or maybe, the fantasy, like aging silver is losing it's shine...perhaps the appeal is finally wearing off?? or maybe enough IS finally enough?

so enough is enough? even as i'm typing that there is a part of me that wholeheartedly believes that and is ready to walk away, and another part of me that is rolling her eyes in disbelief...wondering who the fuck she is kidding?

enough is enough
enough is enough
enough is enough

if i keep saying it, eventually it might be true!