nooooooo

i promised myself I was going to try and stay expectationless...and following a brief conversation this morning which ended mid stream I have observed myself pondering, or is it obsessing, about what the silence means....

probably means NOTHING and yet I find myself pre-occupied...

and now doubting if the person that i experienced yesterday was real...

aarrgghh...of course a more rational girl might just say he's busy instead of assuming it has anything to do with her...novel concept that!

and then of course there is the fact that he is finding where we are 'tough' or when he's being less eloquent 'fucked' and maybe he just needs some breathing time...

so maybe it's not noooooo but nothing, or maybe i am feeling something and i should listen to it...