finally...

not only do i think i may have just kicked the most recently blogged about addiction (you know, the one that relates to him, the unmentionable doctor from the other nights post)...

yep, seems that a few months after he rocks my world, i feel good...and not just good, happy! it's kinda strange as i was pondering tonight how i feel right now and how much things have changed (from this time last week, last month, and even last year)...

and i finally feel happy :-) sometimes i feel so content with my lot that i wonder if i will ever be able to fit someone else in? is this typical i wonder? is it typical for a fabulous forty something woman to feel happy and wonder if there would be room for that special someone? and now i'm sounding (or maybe just hoping) like carrie bradshaw...i'm certain this is something she would write about...

so i'm not sure! perhaps some research is in order, for you know how much i love to research...

honestly though, i'm pretty sure when the right fella comes along that i'll make room for him, of course - perhaps it's a little bit of the old sarah who thinks there won't be room, coz in her world, not making room, means not being vulnerable and not opening the door to being hurt...

but she is gone right...right? left the building, or simply on the way out?

i guess only time will tell...but what i can tell you is that she is a whole lot closer to the door than she has ever been before, and it's feeling pretty neat :-)