woke up this morning to find a text from Ben telling me that his beloved dog Shelly (i used to call her Shell Belle) had died lastnight :-(
i'm so sad for him...he loved her so, and his dad too...and me too coz i loved her too...
it didn't really hit me until i went for my walk (that's coz i had a mad busy day with another tomorrow, starting at 8am...yuk!) just how sad i was and i suddenly got to thinking that the Chris thing, whilst good on one hand (you know, the hand that wants desperately to move past all the pain of what he did, both now, and in re-appearing) has actually been little more than a distraction from the reality that the end of last year was...
so i remembered today, for the first time in ages, the falling in love stage with Ben....and i'm not remembering it with such rose coloured glasses that i think it would be a good idea to pursue all over again, but i was remembering it...and it made me realise how sad it is that two people can feel so strongly for each other at one point, and then, just as quickly as it starts (well not in our case) it can all be over...
soo i'm a bit sad - sad for Ben and his family tonight as they mourn a beloved member of their family in Shell, and sad too that even though him and i will (i guess) always be connected in some way, really, we aren't...
:-(
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