lost....

is how a girlfriend just told me she was feeling, and in a way, i do too! i haven't blogged about this for many reasons....but i miss the structure of going to work! sure i love the autonomy and flexibility i have right now, but as i just told my mum, and this friend, i'm just not busy enough! and it leaves me with far too much time on my hands, which for someone who's as much in their head as me, that just isn't healthy!

so today is not much different from any other day when i don't have clients booked in - sure there's a freedom associated with not having to be somewhere, but there is also the boredom, the lack of challenge, the lack of interaction, the loneliness and sometimes (and this is the bit that scares me) the sense that i have no purpose....

and even though i absolutely LOVE what i do, there just isn't enough of it to keep me engaged/motivated/occupied...

watch this space!