9 to go...

yep, only 9 more posts to go before i hit the 600, and in just over 3 years...can't be bad! of course the events of the last year have meant a great volume of posts than is typical as i work hard to make my way through everything that came up out of the various challenges that fell in my path...

sooo towards 600 - here i come!

it's funny, when i started the blog i had no idea how often i would write it, but i tried hard, at least initially to strive for daily...of course, that becomes increasingly difficult when 'life' seems to take over (here's me thinking my life was small only a handful of days ago)....and on the flip side, when 'life' really does get out of control for me, or my emotions get out of control, it seems the blog is my friend...

which given some of my challenges with asking for help, appearing vulnerable in any one else's presence, is no surprise...it's my outlet, my sounding board and of course, mainly my confidante and something to help me stay just a little bit closer to my usual level of sanity...

i find exercise a bit the same - sometimes, life takes over so exercise is difficult to fit in, but what i can say is that for the last 3 months or so, other than being unwell and physically not able to exercise (not being able to breathe will do that to a girl) i have pretty much managed to achieve this! and this is something to celebrate, as typically i see having to exercise as a chore, and i make all sorts of excuses...too cold, too hot, too humid, too tired, it'll take too long etc etc....

but in recent times i have worked hard to remind myself that there is only ONE person that benefits when i do exercise and the same ONE person who suffers when i don't, and that's me! so in fact exercise is starting to feel more like a self care activity for me and less like a chore - who knows, one day it might feel like indulgence....(i seriously doubt it, but hey?)

i love writing, have i mentioned that? yep i do...i write the blog, i write a monthly newsletter, i write emails and letters to friends, i am trying (note emphasis on trying...) to write a novel or two, and i've just enrolled in a Writing Fiction course throughout March/April...for me writing is probably the closest i get to being myself, it's a true reflection (usually) of what's going on in my mind and i find that as i start to type, a part of my brain, that isn't always at the forefront, seems to gear up....i have often found when i sit down to write the blog, i have nothing to say, and as i start typing, something in my brain turns on - it's like a typing operated switch in there! and sure, some of you will think that even though there is 'content', i don't have anything to say...and that's ok too :-)

soooo as i sit here and ponder how to get my brain into work mode (i have to make some recommendations to a client) for a coupla hours, before heading out to the SCG with my Dad...i am wishing that there was a button in my head to do that easily...

so trying to find or maybe it's less about finding and more about activating (which in itself is really about re-framing) that button in my head which will make throwing myself into work (especially when i'm at home) much much easier...

ok, signing off now...

have a wonderful day x