what is happy?

seriously, what is happy? well as the heaviness of the last few weeks starts to lift i am starting to feel happy again...seems the new old sarah (the one who emerged after Ben but before him) is starting to find her feet again...

and it's nice! not shout from the roof tops crazy, just nice...comfortable and feels good...

it's a relief to me that after such a difficult year with multiple things going on, it may end on a more positive note...

i think going to canberra for xmas helped a lot! seems that the physical break from sydney has in some way, created an emotional/psychological break from all the 'crap' that was going on here, and i find myself enjoying my own company again, loving being back in my little home, enjoying pottering around and not even remotely inclined to hit the sales - this is definitely a good sign!

sooo as 2010 ends and 2011 approaches, i am feeling calmer, happier and more content than i have in a while...

so what is happy? i guess, like everything, it means different things to different people, but to me it's kinda simple - even though there are some (not that i value their unwanted input) that disagree, i am a simple girl at heart...the things that make me happy aren't expensive or hard to come by - on the contrary, they are the most simple...so i thought i'd note some of them here so that when i do have an 'off day' i can remind myself of the things that do make me happy (and i'm not talking about other people here - i'm talking about the things that i can find happiness in when i am on my own):
 - the sun
 - my little home
 - exercise
 - my tv shows
 - a good cup of tea
 - the cricket when we aren't getting belted
 - reading
 - pottering around
 - music
 - butterflies
 - flowers
 - a nap on the couch in the afternoon
 - the smell of washing drying in the wind

and the list could go on, but my crumble is nearly ready (thanks Mum)...

sooo today is the first day in what feels like a LONG time that i have been happy - even the flashbacks to 'him' and the realisation that in less than a month it will be a year since Ben and I broke up - even they haven't managed to make me feel sad or angry today - nope, i am starting to feel happy again and that too is one of the things that makes me feel happy too...

so i'm now off to finish my near perfect day with some crumble and custard, a few episodes of The Good Wife and then an early night with my new book...

nice one!