complicating or cathartic....

so today marks yet another person from my past turning up....this is getting kinda weird don't you think? this is now 6 people in a month! arguably this one i found...found him on facebook, sent an email, got a response, sent him a response and didn't hear back....until today! and actually i wasn't sure if i would be a welcome 'blast from the past' for him...and not like i did anything bad to him, but my recollection of our last interaction was fuzzy, so i couldn't really remember where we left things....it's been, i think, about 10 years! my god the time has flown by....

so after 2 very short emails i ask him if he'd like to catch up before he relocates, he says yes (which actually surprises me)...so then he calls and we talk for easily an hour and it was REALLY really nice to talk to him...he sounded so happy and at ease with himself (this is NOT how i remember him) and has worked out what he wants to do...

so a bit of a welcome distraction in my day, compared to the events of the lsat 3 weeks which have taken their toll emotionally...although lastnight i did manage sleep without sleeping tablets, and judging by how i am feeling right now (exhausted but happy) methinks another drug free night may just follow....

so our conversation was so easy kind of like new old times:  does that make sense? well like old times but with the advantage of age and maturity, so not as edgy, and in way, new! seems he is so much happier and me too i guess...him and i didn't have a good ending the first time, but had (i thought) mended that when last we caught up...

so back in august i posted about 'my year without sex' and i was (even then) hoping that i wouldn't go a whole year without sex....and therein lies the complicating or cathartic title of today post....see this man and i have always had AMAZING chemistry, and on more than just a physical level....and i put 2 and 2 together and started to think that he might just be the way to ensure i don't have 'my year without sex'....he is relocating in january so there isn't much time, and that might actually be a plus...but the thought of having a couple of weeks of summer sex is very very appealing...and it was great sex! in fact, best sex i've ever had....

so am i just inviting complication into my life or is it just the cathartis i need right now???

not sure i know the answer yet, so i'm gonna ponder on it!

and i know the posts are becoming very 'uncensored' but i have to tell you, the other blast from the past turning up has helped me find my voice, and i don't see it retreating now!