shooting stars and jackhammers...

is what i had to contend with on saturday...so i had my 2nd migraine (i had kinda hoped after the first one, which was, admittedly, almost a year ago) that i might not get another one...

but not...this one struck most inconveniently at a wedding - actually it started the day before the wedding, but as i'm a novice, the signs weren't obvious...meaning that by the time they were obvious, it was too late for me to take any amount of drugs and keep going...consequently i missed the reception and went home to sleep - a sleep that lasted for 15 hours

so what started as a bad headache on friday evening, turned into a worse headache saturday morning, followed by shooting stars and a pain so intense in and around my left eye socket that i thought a jackhammer must surely be in there trying to get out...even after my 15 hour drug induced sleep i felt very off on sunday - still had a headache but the pretty shooting stars had gone...and today other than a wee hint of a headache, i'm much better...

man, what a ride! i really do feel sorry for people who are plagued with migraines - i've had 2 in 1 year and let me tell you, that's 2 too many!!

could be a number of contributing factors i guess (my sister asked what brought it on, but seriously, how would i know this)....

• maybe the fact that after 2 years of an irregular cycle, i am finally having regular periods again (turns out having a malfunctioning liver doesn't just impact the stuff you think it will impact)
• maybe the fact that it's been a bloody difficult year in many ways...
• maybe the fact that i didn't really (if i'm honest) want to go to this wedding, and not coz i don't like the people getting married, but because i am feeling really confronted by anything to do with where i am not...and i am so far away from finding someone i want to marry, that it just makes me sad...

soooo that's about all really! am still having up and down weeks - hoping as the 'cycle' settles down that might also settle down and i'll have less lows, more highs, and way more in between...

sooo goodbye shooting stars and jackhammers...please stay away!