channeling my inner sporty self...

so the events of the week have really taken their toll on me...emotionally mainly, but of course the amount of stuff going through my head has also meant i haven't slept that well and to a large extent i have lost my appetite (this isn't a bad thing for someone who's trying to lose weight...)...

so it wasn't much of a surprise when i woke up with a sore throat and headache...despite all that i felt the need to let some steam off and so i decided on a longer walk than usual and even felt the urge to run - that hasn't happened in years!

so a couple of things this week got me thinking about running...you know who runs and whenever i hear that other people run (and seems to be a GREAT way to lose weight, keep fit etc) i wonder why i don't do it - in the past i've often given excuses like my knee, my achilles, wrong bra, etc....

but when i started running (admittedly it was only ever interspersed with my walking, but increased over a couple of weeks) i actually really enjoyed it! it's bloody hard, don't get me wrong, it hurts but there's nothing like a good run to make you feel as though you have actually done some exercise...

so this morning that's what i did - even though i had a sore throat, was dog tired and felt like absolute crap, i threw 2 stints (maybe 1km each) into my walk...and i felt GREAT afterwards...

of course the other thing that spurred me on was this comment from a bloke i went to school with (not the same character who seems to have dominated the remainder of the week's posts...) "Are you ok with being single or would you prefer someone to have to make compromises with? You were always bright, sporty and pretty, so it must be a choice thing, eh?"....nice! so it made me realise a couple of things...

firstly, i never thought of myself as pretty at the age he knew me, so it's nice to have a different perspective on that...doesn't say much for my self esteem around that time (but hey, the years of therapy i think have finally helped me sort that out!)...and secondly, i really WAS sporty! i was captain of virtually any team i played in, good at sport, loved it, and over the years, for whatever reason i seem to dream up (laziness probably being the best one...) i seem to have lost it, and yet i'm NEVER happy with my figure...

soooo in an earlier post i said that 2011 would be the year to find a way to manage my level of stress about the business, make the business a financial success and perhaps i'll add a goal that will help me feel better about myself physically....to regain that 'sporty' image that so many people seem to remember...

so here's to channeling my inner sporty self - may she make an AMAZING comeback!

big list of to do's for 2011!