positive attracts positive...

so does the opposite hold true?

mmmm i wonder! and this has been a thought that has been going thru my head for some time...

i didn't get a chance to blog about my amazing day tuesday, but it really was just that: amazing!  and in so many ways so many amazing things happened, and i got to wondering if it was because i was feeling positive and genuine and ME...

and i know that might sound kinda weird, but i have been having a very difficult time of late, so much so that at times it has frightened me to the point of thinking i need professional help (and i don't say this as if professional help is a bad thing, on the contrary, most of you know that i work in that industry and consequently take mental health VERY seriously)...i have struggled to get myself out of the very negative and destructive thought patterns, and at times have struggled to even get out of bed and do my work....

it comes and goes, for sure, so it's not entirely pervasive, but bloody frightening all the same...it certainly makes me think about what it must be to live with depression...awful, frightening, lonely, energy zapping, and just sad :-( and of course i have lived with someone who did live with this awful illness, so i experienced it second hand, but when it's happening to you, you kinda realise why so many people give up the fight, as really when you are in it, it seems as though NOTHING or NOBODY can break through that and drag you out of it...

anyway, i digress...i guess tuesday in many ways was my break through, at least a small one, and one that i can look back on and smile at - see for some time i have really struggled to find things to smile about and even though i talk about gratitude and the simple things, even those 'techniques' or 'ways of being' have been really hard to rely upon lately...but tuesday was a blessing! the sun was shining, i woke up with an unusual (lately anyway) amount of energy and positivity, i had some great meetings (some personal, some work related) and the whole day just went well...

so then i got to thinking "mmm i wonder if the day would have gone so well if i hadn't been so positive?"...and whilst i don't know for sure that it wouldn't have, i'm pretty sure it wouldn't have...

soooo i'm going to try and remember that positive really does attract positive...and on those days when it's hard to feel positive, i'm going to try and remember just how wonderful tuesday was!

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