so i slept on it

for two nights, and honestly, i almost (note i said almost) don't care anymore...i'm disappointed, sure but i have so many other things that are vying for my attention right now, that giving this particular email (or her behaviour towards me in the lead up) is really not a good use of my time...what i am realising is that people who have little or no capacity for feeling or connecting on an emotional level, are not really people i want to be spending time with...this along with some other realisations during my 1st session with new therapist have certainly provided some interesting food for thought...

soooo i'm doing my level best to let it go! to focus on me and my work and building my business and that is feeling pretty good...had 2 great coaching sessions yesterday, enjoyed my consulting gig today (although it was tiring as the day was all up a 9 hour day - it's been a while since i did one of those!) and will enjoy a slightly easier day tomorrow, thursday day off to spend with my best friend as we celebrate her birthday, and friday a mix of business and pleasure...a busy weekend actually which will probably be good for me!

course things generally would be way better if i didn't have to go to a wedding at the beginning of november, and if my parents weren't so obsessed with detail and planning (this is the 'p' in me coming out!) that it drives me nuts - they really don't get how different i am from them sometimes...from my earlier posts you will know that i am finding many aspects of single life (many, not all!) difficult, so the last thing i want is to have to go to a wedding where i will know virtually no-one in a city i prefer not to be in....of course it probably won't be as bad as i envisage it in my head...

funny how easily external factor/events can impact us, and sad how the memories of times past can haunt us, even years and years on...mmmm more food for thought!

so i'm going to sign off there as i am, in fact, exhausted

nite xxx