my year without sex

got your attention now? of course, it hasn't been a year, it was the title of an aussie movie i just watched with matt day....who i love! it was good actually - pretty funny and poignant and sad...

so it got me to thinking that i hope i don't go a whole year without sex - it's been a while now, but my god, i so don't want to have to wait a whole year....i miss it and sure this is probably a bit too out there for some of my readers - and the old me might have apologised for that, but not the new me....see why is it so embarrassing or somehow frowned upon to say 'i miss sex'?

society and societal pressures are indeed a strange phenomenon....all the stuff we don't do, say, or sometimes even allow ourselves to think, all because we are so bloody worried about what somebody might say about us or think about us if we do...

kinda sad really - the human race seems to have become less comfortable with the experiences that are by their very nature, what make us human..

soooo i miss sex, i'd like to be having it, and maybe just maybe i'll go find myself a fuck buddy until my mr right comes along...

of course i have no idea how i might go about getting one, a fuck buddy that is...well the old me does, but the men i would have slept with previously are no longer the men i find attractive now (we call this growing up i think!)....so the dilemma remains - where does one look for a suitable fuck buddy? and what in fact is considered a suitable fuck buddy??

and then there is of course the obvious downside of sleeping with someone when i really want to be remaining open and available for the man of my dreams - who i know is out there....and i really do believe he's out there, and i have a sense that he's not too far away, so the question then becomes: should i hold on?

so many shoulds....and why is there a 'should' about it...i often say to people 'life is short and to be lived' and i really believe that, so in this particular case should i be 'holding on' for something, even though i really believe, i have absolutely NO idea if it's gonna happen and i certainly don't know when - coz if knew that sort of stuff i surely would have won the lotto by now...

sooo as you can see i have a dilemma...