the new old sarah....

does that make any sense at all? probably not to you, but to me, it very much does...

see i've had a very difficult 15 months or so - you will know this if you've been reading....took a redundancy from my employer of nearly 7 years (voluntarily i might add) but then realised that my whole life (or most of it) i had defined myself through my work....lost my dear grandfather (admittedly he was nearly 98 so a great innings) and i miss him terribly...my relationship with ben started to unravel and it took me a long time to work out how to extract myself from it, see i loved him, and deeply....so then of course it got worse when we finally did break up and i had to re-invent myself!

so i went on a trip and you know what? it really was the BEST thing to do! aside from the hideously high credit card bill i have come back to, it was great....i had a ball - saw people i love, went to cities i love and generally had a great time...

and everyone keeps saying how good i look since i got back and asking me how i am - and how i am is this: the new old sarah...

and what does that mean? well it means that some of the stuff i have been working really hard to be has cemented and emerged, and some of the things about the old me that had gone, have made a comeback, sooooo the new old sarah is here, and hopefully here to stay :-)