and usually i just go there and go with the flow, but i think i'm gonna ask some questions! some questions like do i need to do anything differently to get out there and meet men? and don't get me wrong, i'm doing some things, even though there are some days when i feel like it might be just a little bit soon, and there are other days when i feel soooo ready...
it's so interesting - i really thought that getting over ben was gonna take an age, and don't get me wrong, i still think about him a lot and wonder what he's doing and how he is - that's not gonna disappear in a short space of time, but as each day passes (especially the last 8 days where i have managed exercise on every single one of those days) i do feel better - and perhaps it's because i am just no longer accustomed to having him around, but i also think that i am starting to see things in a very different light now...
some 3 months on it's getting much easier to leave the rose coloured glasses on the bedside table where they belong (in my very french boudoir type bedroom)....
rediscovering music i love and that speaks to me has helped...meditation is definitely helping...exercise is helping (and in many ways was one of the last barriers for me to get over)....the business is helping...the thought of a round the world trip in 4 weeks is helping...the thought of seeing friends and family i love is helping...the thought of a conference in paris is helping - perhaps there'll be some cute men to flirt with (that'll definitely help)....a new business opportunity is helping...but you know what? most of all, my attitude to myself and my life is helping!
so, will be interesting to see what the reading brings up...it's only been about 3 months since i had one but it's a different person - someone i've seen on and off for probably 10 years!
perhaps i'll ask her if i should get my teeth whitened - bit obsessed about that right now - that and whether or not i should in fact go ahead and get that tattoo i've been waiting for....
mmmm decisions, decisions!
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