and saturday wasn't much

better than the mixed bag that was friday :-(

sooo i woke up saturday with a cracker headache and despite an ok sleep, feeling pretty sad (i have previously commented how mornings are often the hardest time of the day)...lay around in bed for a while then finally got myself up and took myself for a walk! which in fact was a great thing to do - nice sunny day, even wore short sleeves, and had kelly to listen to along the way...

i was still feeling really sad from friday - just so many things to contend with...just when i got to feeling a wee bit better, i get a text from ben saying he's feeling sad...so we had a few texts during the afternoon whereby he asked me if i wanted to have tea with him - of course it would have been easy to say yes but as i told him, i wasn't sure it was a good idea or how i would go seeing him - see, we haven't seen each other since he left and i'm just not sure how i would feel if i did....

sooo of course we ended up not having tea and i watched footy all evening (which i enjoyed - i usually do!) and crawled into bed and amazingly slept for nearly 9 hours straight - haven't done that for well over a week and even though i still felt a wee bit sad, woke up feeling much more 'together' - guess a good nights sleep is so often under rated! again took myself off for a walk - this time went to crows nest and dropped by shops to pick up some lamb cutlets and some bread - two items i forgot to get whilst food shopping yesterday! watched one of my taped shows only to find out it was the season final - groan!

rest of day has been taken up with a bit of study, finally pulling together the itinerary for the trip (and in doing so realising i had not in fact booked one of my US internal flights...oops), chatting to my sister Laurel (she skyped me...)....

so not all bad, but it's days like today (mothers day) when it is hard - see had ben and i been together still we would have spent the day with his family (if of course we weren't in canberra)...and i toyed with going home to canberra but i just have so much to do before i fly out and honestly, there isn't that much time between now and then...so throughout the day i found my mind often wondering to what ben's family would be doing and where....whatever they did, i hope they had a nice time :-)

one good thing is that i passed my Cert IV assessments meaning that i am only an exit interview phone call away from graduating! woo hoo...sooo only 1 qualification left for me to finish up this year - i think after i finish the next one i'm going to give myself a wee bit of time off from study...since june 2006 i have not had much of a break from study (bar the 3 months between finishing my counselling course and starting the coaching and mbti courses)....so a well earned break methinks...and a great time to get back into my writing...

and now that i have written heaps already i realised that i wanted to blog about something else, but i may do that in another post...

sooo signing off now and when i get inspired to start the next one, watch this space xx