straight lines...

so it's kinda weird when you hear the 'song' that was 'our song' with your ex for the first time since breaking up...

i've avoided playing it on my computer or mp3, but can't do much about the radio station and tonight as i was driving home it was on...my inital reaction was sadness, that it's no longer our song and of course that i'm no longer with ben, but then i thought that in fact, that was our song very very early on in the piece and we were madly in love then, so a lot of water is under the bridge now...

still made me feel sad, but as the song wore on i found myself turning it up, coz i always liked it, even before i became our song and he downloaded it for me...

so i guess there's hope for me yet! i have (other than a coupla slow mornings - which i already know isn't my best time of the day) in fact had an ok coupla weeks...

i'm back at meditation on a monday night (this is helping enormously), i'm out and about networking and trying to create work for myself, i'm spending more time with my lovely friends, i'm reading more, now all i really need to do is get back into some serious exercise...

so the sadness is slowly lifting and even though i do miss ben and there are times when it's a lot worse than normal (like when my computer doesn't work for some reason), i am starting to come good...

perhaps you could even say that i'm walking in a straight line :-)