is this it?

so this is what a good friend of mine told me she's worried about now...she broke up with her fella a few months before Ben and I broke up and she now says that she is concerned that 'this' (i.e. the life she has right now) will be it...

guess in some ways i'm concerned about that too, but as i am starting to get back into my life and the things, and people, i enjoyed, i am starting to see that there are worse fates than being single...

and don't get me wrong - ultimately, i do NOT want to be single, but happily single (which i am not, not yet anyway...i'm still in that adjustment period, but i think i'm doing pretty well) is way better than unhappily coupled...

what we also talked about was the fact that right now it seems impossible that someone will be able to mention Ben's name in the future and it won't bring back all the very sad memories that it does now - i guess that takes time too and as the 3 month anniversary of the breakup dawns, i guess i am still not sure how that will become possible, or when...

amazingly i am flying out for my round the world trip in just over 5 weeks...eek - so much to do before then but today i finally put the finishing touches on my Cert IV in Coaching so fingers crossed the assessments will be marked 'competent', my exit interview will be scheduled and sometime in April/May i'll graduate...

one down, one to go!

i can see the finish line but i wonder if i will ge there in one piece....

ok, bed is calling, along with a new book!

nite
xx