better than they started - i had a few good meetings today, did a good coaching session and had dinner with a very good friend...
the day itself was awful - the night got worse after i wrote my blog and i cried for what seemed like hours - with a mind running like a game with no off switch, sadly i woke up at 5am and found it hard to get back to sleep...so i felt rather 'under the weather' this morning - no surprise then when i wake up and it's raining - as if the universe in some way is matching how i feel...
so what i found out was that i was a wee bit obsessed today with something (and i can't blog about it) and it really did take control of me - of my usual balanced cognitively aware self and it really did ruin a large part of my day...
what is good though is that through plenty of observation and chatting with Em, i realised what it is and it's a fear - an irrational one (obviously) and one that i can't control and have no influence over, nor any responsibility for, but for some reason it really does grab a hold of me...
mental note to self to discuss with sallyanne on saturday...
so as always self awareness is a good thing and now i can make a decision about how to handle this particular fear, and at least, if not initially handle it, deal with it more effectively until i have resolved it!
sooo all in all the day hasn't been too bad - it's ended WAY better than it started and i can feel a bit of the old new me re-emerging! welcome back...
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