Sunday, March 28, 2010

what is it about going

to a pub on a saturday night that i find truly soul destroying:
 - the number of thin, young, scantily clad women (of which I am not one)
 - the volume of the music so i can't hear myself (or anyone else) think
 - the reality of when i leave and come home, it is just me?

i don't know - i really enjoyed catching up with my friend (and her best friend) but i'm just not sure the pub scene is for me....

i came home and felt so lonely that i did something even i thought i shouldn't do....and went to sleep feeling really sad and very lonely and actually like a little bit of my old (read negative) thinking had re-emerged....

so i'm gonna go very gently today...

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