the mornings and the evenings

are still the hardest times...and not every day and not the same time each time, but generally, they seem to be the times i tend to feel most sad...

of course there are whole days at a time when i get on without feeling sad at all, and then there are whole days at a time when i find it difficult to find my groove...

and of course i'm now looking at my calendar and realising that my period is due, so of course the last few days won't be a real indicator of my emotional state or how well i am 'getting over' the breakup...and then of course there is the lurgy - yes the one i got after visiting friends last weekend, where both lots of their kids seemed to be afflicted with different lurgies, and i have had some combination of them both...all week...

sooo no wonder i'm feeling sad really - the breakup wasn't that long ago, i miss having a companion, i miss being in a relationship, i miss the little things, i miss the language we used with each other (and this i mean that language that couples have that only them understand), i miss having someone to come home to, i miss so much about being in a relationship....and of course i'm sick and have pmt - no wonder i'm feeling sad!