i'm sad and angry and not liking the

reality that is now my life...

so of course making a decision to end a relationship is in itself not very easy - then there's the shock of what you've done, then there's the trying to re-build your life without them in it...those bits seem to have gone ok (well bar the months and months i spent working out what i really wanted)...

so now, some 7 weeks on, why do i feel so flat? the freedom that i had been starting to enjoy is now starting to feel like something else? and i can't quite put my finger on it - of course i still have that freedom, but now it feels, in some ways, like punishment...punishment for making the only decision i could...

so the reality of the situation is now becoming almost painfully clear and the reality is this (the negative side only, coz there are many positives, which until i'd started this post, i was finding hard to remember): i am on my own again...this is not somewhere i wanted to be...and there are aspects of it that i really don't like....

soooo how do i put myself back into that positive space - do i in fact need to put myself back there or would i be better served by simply acknowledging where i am right now, how i feel right now and sitting with it?

i know what my therapist would say!