Friday, February 12, 2010

today has been hard...

and i'm not sure why...could be coz the reality of being 'single' and 'on my own' is really just hitting home, or could be because for nearly 2 years i spoke to Ben every day and now our communications are dwindling to the things that need 'sorting out'...could be coz i simply had thought and hoped that once i met him, we would be together forever...

and not that i'm some starry eyed naive girl who believes that things are forever, but i guess if i'm honest, that's what i'd hoped for...

and not as though our relationship was perfect in the end, but at least i was a 'we'...getting used to saying 'me' or 'i' instead of 'we' and 'us' is really bloody hard and if i'm being brutally honest i have always thought that i can't consider myself to be truly successful until i am in a happy relationship...

an interesting belief and one that warrants a lot more contemplation and discussion with my therapist!

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