downtown northallerton! not exactly in the same league, but then again my reasons for going there are not related to what is there, but who...
so i decided a coupla weeks ago to plan a mid year trip - coupla reasons: firstly, to visit my grandmother who has been having a rough time since my grandfather died and secondly, to give me something to look forward to...
of course my first reaction after telling my grandmother that i was coming, was sheer dread - the fear that having made the commitment i would have to go through with it - and it occured to me that making commitments (after the breakup) was something i found really hard...and it took me a while to work out what was going on there, but i think i have now...
see, i throw myself into things 120% - sometimes more, rarely less! and i did that with my emotional commitment to ben and since we didn't make it i guess i became afraid of making commitments...
so guess i've gotten over that fear of commitment to some extent as i just paid for my trip today...as i said to a friend i'm going shopping in new york, going to a conference in paris and spending some time with good friends and my grandmother...
should be good - bring on june 2nd!
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