even though i said advice is

usually not welcome in these situations, one particular friend has given me what i consider to be great advice...

she told me that when she went through the breakup of a relationship a journal became her closest friend...she wrote down:
- what she missed about the relationship
- what she didn't miss about the relationship
- what she wanted in future and with whom (I found this hard to imagine, but of course she meant the values and attributes not a name...sometimes I can be so literal!)
- who her friends were
- what she loved doing in her own time
- what she was feeling
- what was on her mind

so thank you my dear friend, i will endeavour to do this and in fact, before you had even emailed me i had started on the 'what i want in the future' list....i know that i can share some of this stuff on the blog, but not everything, so if it appears incomplete, then there's a reason for that...

i thought the easiest bit to do might be to make a list of the stuff i miss, coz right now it's very fresh in my mind and of course, there is a lot that i miss...

- i miss the ritual of drinking tea with ben, especially my morning cuppa (usually served in bed)
- i miss my CIO
- i miss our walks
- i miss watching jeopardy with him over dinner
- i miss the 'language' we used with each other
- i miss saying 'we' instead of 'i' or 'me'
- i miss the chats we used to have in bed
- i miss the hugs, the kisses and of course...well you know
- i miss having someone to bounce ideas off
- i miss the end of day debrief in bed

no doubt there will be more added to this list, but right now, after a number of posts today, that's about all i can come up with...

nite