so it's not just me who thinks i'm not writing

enough!!!

turns out one of my best friends, who occasionally looks at the blog (mainly to see what's happening in my life if we are too busy to catch up) told me tonight that he didn't think i wrote as often as i used to...

you know what: he's right! and the funny thing is that for the last 5 months i haven't had a job so one might ask 'what the f#$% have i been doing'?

and well you might ask! for one i had to get over nearly 20 years of the corporate treadmill - that took some doing...then, even though i desperately wanted to leave and would probably have done so myself (ie without retrenchment) in december this year, i found it really hard to adjust to - not earning any money, not having a 'title', not having a place to go every day and frankly missing some of the nice people i used to work with...

added to that my grandfather passed away and what ensued was to put it mildly, a bit of a depression...i felt lost and stuck and frankly pretty miserable - not really feeling that i had any direction whilst left me feeling without motivation...

in the middle of all that i had to deal with not getting a job - see when i left 'said employer' i had a plan and when it became apparent (some 8 or so weeks into my 'leisure time') i didn't really know how to deal with it, and between you and me, i didn't have a plan b...

so after a little while, maybe 8 or 10 weeks, of feeling sorry for myself and not making any headway, i finally perked up...

and now i am in the throes of setting up my own business! to date i am nearly finished with business card design, website is a work in progress, i have one paying client who i'm loving working with, he obviously likes working with me coz he's referred me someone who i hope will become my second paying client...i have a couple of leads to do some corporate work - i've picked up an 'associate coach' role with an organisation, and i have been approached by a lady who runs her own leadership development practice to go and work with her...

so, it's been a great five months really - i've had a fantastic break, i've learned (on the whole) how to be patient and stick to my dream - see even though i didn't have a plan b or c, i did have a vision - and it's now coming together - i've enjoyed a winter for virtually the first time in my life - i've tried hard to learn a lesson i probably should have learned years ago, and i'm feeling really positive about my future...

so, that's what i've been doing and in the moments of soul searching, blogging just didn't feel right, and in my creative moments (when they came) blogging also wasn't right and frankly, there didn't seem to be much of a middle ground between despair and creative for a while...

sooo next time you read dear friend, hopefully this will explain why you haven't had much to read lately!

nite
xx