my last post wasn't too positive...

so i'm gonna try and come at this one from a different angle!

have had an ok weekend actually - had a lovely afternoon yesterday with a group of girls - a girl I mentor invited me to her annual lady's lunch - and despite not wanting to go I made the effort, made a cake and went - i had a lovely time - the weather was so lovely we could sit outside - the company was great - the food was good too - i met some nice girls and caught up with one former work colleague who was made redundant 5 months ago - was a nice surprise to see her there and we had a great chat - we agreed to meet up in a few weeks and she insists that the rollercoaster i am on in completely normal...guess it was nice to have some re-assurance from someone who's going thru (albeit a bit farther down the path) the same thing as me...

other stuff is improving too - i sometimes get too in my head and my own fears (i was going to write stupid fears - but they aren't stupid - they are very real to me) and i let that drive a lot of stuff...managed to get some of that stuff off my chest, and feeling much more heard than i was the last week or so - thx for listening (you know who you are...)...

have a busy week ahead: have to finish an assignment, catching up with a girlfriend tuesday which i am very much looking fwd to and feeling stressed about coz it means i realy need to use tomorrow wisely (in terms of my time allocation), wednesday i'm meeting up with a guy in town (an hr contact) and having lunch with another girlfriend and thursday i'm going to meet up with a potential placement organisation (for my last 70 hour placement) and hand back in my security tag and remote access card at work - see friday 15th may is my last official day of paid work...

it's gonna be busy, but i think good - i'm starting to formulate some plans for what i will do for work, and the longer it goes that i am away from corporate life the more creative i get - this is good!! right now i am thinking that i'd still like to do outplacement consulting and career transition work, and that i'd like to complement that with something in the counselling field once i am qualified - which reminds me of another thing to do on my list: check once I have finished at what point i can practice coz there isn't another graduation ceremony until november...

anyway, it's coming good - i am trying to remember a couple of things and stop the negative self talk when it starts....

nite y'all...