i'm sad today...

my dad called me first thing this morning to let me know that my granda (his dad) had a massive stroke overnight....

i'm sad on many levels: sad that my granda has suffered such a big stroke and hasn't passed away - i want so much for him not to suffer and to die with the dignity that he's lived his amazing and long life...sad for my dad that his dad is slipping away and he's going to fly half way round the world on his own not knowing if his dad will still be alive when he gets there...sad that my mentor is no longer the man i have known my entire life...sad that i can't just 'pop in' and say goodbye to him...sad that my grandma will soon be on her own

i'm just really really sad...so please universe if you are listening, please let my granda live long enough for my dad to get there, for him to say goodbye and for them to have one last chance to talk about the stuff that's important to them...