just keeps coming...
turns out my grandfather will not be returning to live with my grandmother (his wife of nearly 68 years) as his health (both physical and mental) have deteriorated so badly that he is almost constantly disorientated (and as a result, not safe without constant care)...
it makes me really sad. sad on so many levels. sad that i will never get (or at least very very unlikely) the chance to have one of our lovely phone calls again...sad that if i did he might not even know who i am...sad that he is no longer living the sort of life has always and would want to live...sad that my grandmother is probably heart broken at the idea that they will now live apart, even though she is putting on the bravest of faces...sad that my dad feels so helpless (we are some 12,000 kms from where my gramps live) even though rationally he knows being there would make no difference at all...sad that soon he may not be with us at all...
so universe if you are listening, please don't make things harder for him: please allow him to die with the dignity he has lived his life, please don't let him suffer for too long and please give my grandmother the strength to cope with the next stage of her life...please give those of us who have been touched by his life the way forward without him and please let us heal our pain with love, fond memories and gratitude...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment