last night in my '30's...

mmm yes tonight is my last night as a 30 something year old! part of me cannot quite believe that i will be 40 tomorrow...which when i was younger seemed old...guess that in itself is a sign of how times have changed!

40 is the new 30, or so i'm told! honestly i'm not sure i'd want to actually be 30 again, but to be 30 again knowing what i know now - sure!

so the difference between 30 and 40, for me anyway is:

• i no longer feel the need to prove myself to everyone, admittedly there are still a few hangers on but they are much fewer in number than they were 10 years ago;
• i am finally in the sort of relationship that i have wanted for so long - ben has become an integral part of my life and it's fabulous to be entering my 40's with a most special man by my side;
• i am no longer unsure about my work future! in less than one year i will retire from full time corporate life and pursue my dream;
• i know what i want to be when i grow up, although i reserve the right to remain childish on occasion;
• i spend much less time doing and far more time being;
• i am far more accepting, of myself and of others;
• i know the difference between empathy and sympathy;
• the relationships that i have with both family and friends have changed dramatically during the last 10 years - in those years i have lost some friends, gained some new ones and stregthened the bond of those who were there for the ride; and
• i understand what it is to be grateful and right now i am grateful! grateful for everything being just the way it is - i wouldn't change a thing...

soooo as i bid farewell to one decade and welcome in another, i do it with no regrets, knowing that whatever happened did so for a reason, and that whatever the universe has in store, will be just as it should be...

bye bye thirties....