i'm getting desperate...

and not in the way you think!

see if you've been reading, then you will know that i have been plagued with 'stomach issues' since early November - actually it was late October, but i probably didn't start thinking it wasn't going to go away til Nov....

so now my spare time is consumed with googling to find ways to cure the various ailments i have been suffering! good news is that last wednesday i came across a very simple remedy for one of the issues (which in fact was what i thought was leading to the other issue), both of which had been kept at bay for well over a month taking medication that ultimately i would become dependant on...

so i started taking it wed night and by saturday morning i had noticed a difference - enough of a difference to stop the other medication...so now it's monday and i haven't gone back to the other medication, but the other problem (the one i thought was caused by the first problem which has kind of now gone) is now back...

and by back, i mean back wth a vengeance! now the scary thing is this: i have been medicated (using prescription meds) for this problem (actually it's reflux) for over 14 years and when the problems started in october, the sort of symptoms i had this morning were not there - they seem to have hit back, and hard :-(

so i've had a pretty miserable day...thankfully ben was there to make me tea this morning and kiss me goodbye, and he was here when i got home to hug and console me...

i was really hoping that between the prescription meds and the new stuff for the other problem that i would be ok - and in fact until this morning, i'd had 2 good days in a row - this is not something that has occurred frequently in the last few months...

imagine how disappointed i was then when on the train on the way to work i had the most excruciatingly painful burning sensation in the middle of my chest, coupled with an acrid, hot and horrible sensation in the back of my throat...

i wish i knew what was going on in my body - it is honestly becoming overwhelming and making me wonder if i'm ever going to get better and just live the sort of life i was living before...

sooo i am very hopeful that my 3rd trip to the gastroenterologist this wednesday will shed some light on this problem and by thursday i'll be on my way to good health!

please please please wish me luck and pray to whichever deity is yours that they work out what is going wrong with me, and have a quick and easy way of fixing it...