something you said back? yeah well that was yesterday for me - it wasn't a good day (actually it was way worse than that) and i found myself in a situation i wasn't comfortable in, not feeling well and i said something in jest which hurt ben's feelings...
what followed was the worst 24 hours i have experienced in as long as i can remember...
i have few regrets in my life, in fact until yesterday, probably none of significance, but i couldn't help but hope that everytime i shut my eyes (either tear filled or in a vain attempt to sleep) i would open them again to a different scenario...
nope, turns out i couldn't turn back the clock or erase what had been said - instead i had to (as did ben) live through the consequences of my stupid, unthoughtful, and mean words....
i have cried more tears in the last 24 hours than i thought possible - i've said sorry so many times it no longer has any meaning, and i've wished more times than infinity that it wasn't so...
so now that things are starting to resemble normality (or what we have known as normality for the last 5 months or so) i have learnt a valuable lesson...and one which i should have learnt earlier...
so to ben - thank you for being you and for helping me learn...i do love you and am truly sorry xox
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